This is odd to me. I try to avoid doing too many journals and I end up leaving you guys with an outdated diatribe about an extra long emo moment I had. Of course, I'm falling into my typical pattern of retardedly emo journals then something in a contented tone with some humorous bits, followed by a reactionary type journal then back to emo, but I don't care. This is my cycle and I stick to it.

I feel like there are a few explanations I need to make. Things in my life are over-complicated. I'm sort of in a half-relationship, mostly because certain factors of it make it risky to even acknowledge its existence. However, if one were to see this "friendship" as a relationship, I would say it's going good, and it looks promising. I want it to last, and I've been given word that it would. However, I have very many weak moments which result in me doubting this. I want it to last, all the way, even, but with failed relationship after failed relationship, I just have trouble seeing it make it. These kinda thoughts hurt, and I've been told to do my best to drop them when they come, it's just getting hard. It's my only real issue I deal with right now, though, so that's good.

In other news, I'm sorta of just spinning my wheels here, trying to get my license and a job. Unfortunately, the man I'm relying on for help on this is doing a whole lot of nothing himself. Thanks a bunch, Dad.

However, my shut-in-ness has contributed quite well to my internet life. I'm a straight up awesome motherfucker when it comes to that. ROMhacking, Mugen work, and being one of the best inactive mods at a forum that doesn't need much moderation anymore. It's all greet. YES I SAID GREET I SAY IT IN A SCOTTISH ACCENT BLAME MADFATHER'S COMICS.

Oh SHIT I need to finish quick, Scrubs just came on. That's all I've really needed to vent on. Oh, and my Xbox Red Ringed, for those I haven't told.

kbai